not feeling well....

assalamualaikum...


hari ini merasa sedikit kuat untuk menulis disini...
sudah beberapa minggu aku di uji dengan kesakitan dari yang Maha Esa...


demam yang berpanjangan,
batuk...
semput...
dan sesak nafas........
suara yang tenggelam timbul.................


"semoga aku kuat dan tabah menghadapinya......"


dont know how i got this infection in my throat...mula2 just batuk2 biasa for 1 week...then i lost my voice..totally lost it n coughing become worst than before.....
gone to see doctor n he gave me some ubat batuk, ubat demam n ubat angin....
a week after...ubat2 tak memberi kesan positif....


then, jumpa lagi dr. yang sama...
he check my throat again n said that i have infection on my throat...
then he gave me another ubat batuk, antibiotic, n sambung ubat demam n tahan muntah...
this thing cause me to puke every night untill "muntah hijau" n semput......


another week has passed...
n im not getting better...my coughing continuously killing me n my sleep..
abg getting worried...i mean sooooooo worried.... 
because aku batuk mcm org nak hilang nyawa...
siriusly, dada aku betul2 sempit....n i cant breath for a few second...
i have to punch my chest just to breath back.....
"SIKSA".......


masuk nih dah 4 minggu batuk nih still with me..
this time  gone to see a goverment doctor..
she gave me almost the same medicine...
"ubat batuk n ubat demam" 
only this time my "kahak" was taken as sample....


so..there you go....
never had this kind of disease before..
people around me start making a lot of rumors about this n that...
they just dont know how painful i am..... 
how i pray to get better as soon as possible...
its been 4 weeks my sleep were interrupted by "batuk n semput and sesak dada...."
n every night i cry just to catch my breath back........!!!
now i know how people who has asma feel....
its really killing you if you cant catch your breath back....
huhuhuhuhu....


so,pray for me...
that i'll getting better......
i also loss my weight.........
pale face...
suara serak....


i wish i could grow stronger n stop complaining....
huhuhuhu....


thats all i guess...
do pray that i'll getting better...
because im really losing myself................




~~the end~~